“Anxiety disorders are the most common mental illness in the U.S., affecting 40 million adults in the United States age 18 and older”
- Anxiety and Depression Association of America (ADAA)
Are you among those 40 million adults? I am. I can’t tell if it's something I bring upon myself or if it’s a genuine chemical imbalance. Maybe my period is causing this? Did you know there are over 150 symptoms of PMS? Couple that with anxiety and we have ourselves a lovely recipe for disaster.
Anxiety is a real thing, people. There may not be any visual symptoms for others to see. Unless of course you’re sweating from an anxiety attack, which has happened to me. Aside from that though, no one really sees the internal chaos that’s happening inside your body. It’s not just your mind that goes haywire. The effects of anxiety offset a whole slew of other issues like an upset stomach, nausea or headaches. For many years I thought of anxiety as a weakness of the mind and in some cases I still do. However, the older I get and the more things start to malfunction I’m starting to FEEL that it’s not all just in my head.
I reached a point where I couldn’t even drive without pulling over to take a breather. It’s self-sabotage I tell ya. I’d race my own mind with these “Final Destination” thoughts - it's mental overload. My heart would pound a little harder. Breathing would become erratic and I’d have to exit the highway. As big as the highway would be, I couldn’t help but feel claustrophobic for some reason. It made zero sense to me. But it was happening!
I’d pull over and give myself a pep talk:
“….this is silly, girl. You are fine! NOTHING is happening to you right now. It’s all in your head” I’d say, “you are still breathing, you are coherent, and you know where you are and where you’re going.”
I’d wait till I felt calm. At times I’d even phone a friend to redirect my thoughts. Once the “episode” would pass, I’d put the car in drive and continue. That’s not normal.
Some would say well driving in the city can be stressful and I agree. But how do I explain the attacks I’d get at home then? Sometimes the reality of having kids, having to care for a whole other human who cannot fend for themselves would become an overwhelming thought. Then boom. I start panicking about what if something goes wrong on my watch. I’d break out in sweats and would use ice packs on my neck, chest and back to calm down.
Everyone handles stress differently. I’ve tried therapists but I felt like it further prolonged the issue till the next session. The world doesn’t stop and it surely will not wait till next session either. Nixed that real quick. Some people sleep it off (I’ve done that). Some exercise (done that too). Others smoke cigarettes or drink. I vaped. Vaping seemed to calm my nerve the best. It gave me clarity and better focus. I feel like it even made me be a better parent. It would open me up and allow me to get into both my kids’ world. Being 37 years old, sometimes you forget what it is to be living for only 2 years. I could never be present to that in my normal state of mind. It’s busy worrying about a million things.
JUST WHEN YOU THINK YOU’VE TRIED IT ALL
A dear friend/co-worker suggested to me Vitamin B Complex. It was more for my immune system as I was dealing with a bad cold at the time, but as she was showing me the benefits of B my interest grew fonder. After doing a little research of my own I found that Vitamin B Complex is a combination of different types of Vitamin B and each type serves its own purpose. I put together an info-graphic for a quick glance:
“ADDED TO CART”
I don’t really take vitamins like that. At my last checkup I was informed about a Vitamin D deficiency. Turns out alot of us are deficient. I have yet to supplement. Lucky that I even remember to take my birth control pill every day.
Still I decided to try B Complex since my anxiety was through the roof and I was feeling desperate. I added it to my Amazon cart. Checked out and waited patiently for my new life to arrive.
Before taking anything you should always consult with your doctor first. Not everyone has the same reactions to medicines or supplements. Even though B Complex is water soluble and is excreted through the urine one can still overdose if the intake is more than the suggested use or the body can handle.
Just in case, I’m listing below some possible side effects:
“If taken in large doses vitamin B complex can have negative side effects. Side effects include gout, high blood sugar and skin problems. Overdoses of B vitamins can lead to heart and liver complications, and high doses of vitamin B3, or niacin, can cause vision problems, nausea and vomiting and worsening of stomach ulcers. If you are on chemotherapy, high doses of folic acid can interfere with these drugs.”
SOURCE: LIVESTRONG.COM I B-COMPLEX VITAMIN BENEFITS & SIDE EFFECTS
The good news is if you reduce or stop your intake you can reverse the impact.
MY B REACTION
I vividly remember my reaction to my first time taking B complex because I was completely floored by what resulted. Twenty to thirty minutes in and I already felt it at work which is surprising to me because things like this usually take a few days to start feeling the changes. The sense of calmness that I experienced throughout my whole body was completely unbelievable. Holy shit I was finally relaxed! My nerve endings stopped feeling fried and frazzled. Do you know how long it’s been since I felt this relaxed? Me either! I thought I was never going to feel relaxed again. I accepted my current state and blamed it on being a mother and living in NYC. I’m so glad I was wrong.
I’ve been taking B complex for a couple weeks now and my body feels less tense. My teeth aren’t grinding and my headaches have subsided. Driving has never been better. I've never been more at ease. Just with those few changes my life has improved that much more and I'm a happier person to be around.
No one likes a salty bitch. LOL.
SOURCE: WEB MD – VITAMINS & SUPPLEMENTS CENTER